“ I am not useful to others.”
Is it true?
No
How do I react - what happens - when I believe the thought?
I separate from others. I judge myself harshly through the imagined eyes of these false others. I shrink my world and limit my possibilities. I make people out to be villains or weaklings. I become self-important.
Who would I be if I could not believe the thought?
I would be a person showered in gifts, grateful for my existence, for everything that is. I would see my usefulness in everything I am. I would understand that it’s impossible not to be useful. I would be a guy who loves people without worrying about their opinion of me. I would be free to live in joy. I would be a guy who sees people’s strengths and doesn’t tell himself lies about people lacking.
Do I see a reason to drop the thought, “I am not useful to others?”
Yes.
Turned around:
I AM useful to others.
I mean…countless others! The thought that I wouldn’t be is suddenly comical.
I am not useful to ME
In that moment, I am separating from my true nature. I am accusing myself. This is not useful to me. It doesn’t get me anywhere I want to be.
I am not USELESS to others
I am others.
We are all connected.
I want to be useful to others. Is it true?
No.
Turned around:
I do not want to be useful TO OTHERS.
There are no others. It’s all projected.
I do not WANT to be useful to others
I already am useful to others: the kids, my wife, my friends and co-writers, my sister...etc. so I do not WANT to be useful... I already AM useful.
I want to be useful to ME
I deserve my own care.
I want to support myself in clearing my mind of stressful thoughts.
I need to know I matter to other people. Is it true?
No.
Is it possible to know another’s mind?
No.
Turned around:
I do not need to KNOW I matter to other people.
I don’t know, and here I am, I’m okay.
I never will know. I never CAN know.
I need to know I matter to ME.
I see a reason to drop self-accusation from my life.
I see a reason to believe I matter, independent of other people’s opinions (which are nothing more than my opinion anyway).
I need to know I DON’T matter to other people.
They have their own lives. Their own things to worry about.
I can’t matter to them. If I exist at all to them, I am just their projection.
If they think I matter to them, it’s just pure imagination.
I should be contributing solutions to the problems of the world.
Turned around:
I should be contributing PROBLEMS to the SOLUTIONS of the world.
I am free. I am anything I believe. I can endure being thought a problem by someone else.
If anyone experiences my loving freedom as a problem, that may be the very prompt they need to begin finding peace.
Sounds freeing to allow myself to be lovingly whole.
I should be contributing solutions to the problems of MY MIND.
Yes. That’s where all my problems are.
I should not be contributing solutions to the problems of THE WORLD.
If all my problems are imagined, then there are no problems in THE WORLD.
“Fixing” what is not broken, breaks it.
I am aimless, unhelpful, stagnant, idle, disconnected,
Yes…when I believe the thoughts, “I am not useful,” “I need to know I matter to other people,” “I should be contributing solutions to the problems of the world.”
I never want to feel like I’m useless again. Is it true?
Turned around:
I am willing to feel like I’m useless.
I look forward to feeling like I’m useless. If I feel that way, it’s just a signal that I’ve got more work to do to clear up my mind. And the more work I do, the more peaceful and aligned with the benevolent truth I become. So I really look forward to it!